"I'll be honest with you. I'm a little bit of a loner. It's been a bit of a maturing process to learn to allow people to support me. I tend to be very self-reliant and private. And I have this history of wanting to work things out on my own and protect people from what's going on with me."
When I read this quote, I couldn't help but feel a bit of relief knowing that I am not the only person who feels this way. Sometimes people will make you feel bad for not wanting to depend on others in times of need, but the truth is, I HATE it. I hate asking for help in any form, and when I am forced to, it makes me feel like I don't have a handle on my own life, and I just.....I don't like that. I don't like the idea of say, someone helping me, and then possibly using what they did for me, against me down the line, because let's keep it real here - people will do that to you, even the people closest to you. I like to handle things on my own, and it isn't until I've exhausted ALL of my options that I feel the need to reach out to others for support, and even then, I'm beating myself about it internally. I like to figure my shit out on my own.
As Kerry mentioned, it's more about privacy and self-reliance than anything else. I AM a loner. I AM an extremely private person. I AM self-sufficient. Letting my guard down and displaying vulnerability to people has gotten even more difficult for me over the years, and I suppose it's something I need to work on.
These images of the beautiful Kerry Washington are via InStyle Mag.